2011 - Ugly Truth

And the year comes to an end, well..I had decided to write about the year and how the year was rocking and the usual stuff. Nothing different. With an awesome song called Aahatein by Agnee playing in the background. I am virtually blank. There are lots of things that I feel like writing...but I shouldn't sound offensive or hurt anybody... but as the title suggests, 2011 was the year of “Ugly Truth”

I learned two lessons in life and eventually everyone faces it:
1. Life is unfair & a bitch.
2. It is filled with hypocrites(including you & me)

But when I look back now...those were certainly not the best days of my life, but somewhere I feel, having a rough patch is necessary. It makes you a mature & an understanding person. It makes you realize who your true friends are and that rough patch is like an eye-opener.

Now, Change is a very relative and sensitive topic for me these days, and I guess I have written enough already about love, relationships, change and loads of things which I don’t want to write again.

There were times when I felt and still feel that I made someone a PRORITY in my life when I was just an option in their life. No one ever told me what to do with such people. I guess, time is the best solution for all these problems. I am sure...everyone has a “priority” like this in their life. Surprisingly, once you get over that phase i.e the feeling of jealousy, envy, getting rejected, ignored by people, it makes you laugh and is somewhat like a blessing in disguise.

2011 was a year , like I said was a year of “Ugly Truth”. I realized that not all dreams can’t be fulfilled. I couldn’t fulfill my dream of studying in a college I dreamt….and many such dreams still remain a dream for me.

I made loads of friends in this year and just to balance that, I lost some friends too…some just left…some want to leave and the list goes gone. Have already written about that :- and I had a friend.

But for the people who always make me smile, who always listen to anything and every piece of nonsense I talk, I love you guys. You have been immensely helpful to me. For the people that I hurt, I am sorry, saying sorry doesn’t make a dead man alive nor does it heal wounds. But I hope you’ll forgive me whole-heartedly.

For the people who hate me, back-bitch about me and for the people who made me suffer and preferred someone else over me & the people who don’t value me, a BIG thank you. You guys are always a blessing in disguise for me.

The unforgettable moment in this year would be the 5 mins before my play, when I was crying and that was the day when I realized why they call it “Tears of Joy”. Well, overall 2011 has been a roller-coaster ride with its ups and downs.

माझी एकांकिका बघयला आलेल्या सर्व लोकांना धन्यवाद. "प्रभाव" फक्त तुमच्या मुळे शक्य होता....दुसरा प्रयोग लवकरच.... :)

Happy new year to everyone & I believe 2012 will be much more exciting than 2011 for you. Have fun and enjoy every moment possible.

P.S - For more info regarding my play, do visit - Prabhav.

and I HAD a friend....

In the past 2-3 months...I realized that "Change is the only constant thing in life", and I realized it the harsh way. Be it, the weather or your thinking process or people. Everyone changes. The following write up, a semi-fiction, is based on similar lines.

and I had a friend, who used to make me laugh...I had a friend, who used to make me talk.
It used to be always me talking and the friend listening...without me even thinking, how that friend must be feeling. When I look back now, it was always about ME, which is exactly where I went wrong.

and I had a friend who got a girl-friend... I also had a friend who got a boy-friend.
Priorities are bound to change and that changes the people too, but wait...they are in love and I seem to have heard somewhere that everything is fair and love and war. But does that also mean that you forget the old ones?

And FINALLY.... I had Friends who got new friends...guess it is very difficult seeing people close to you becoming close to someone else. The relation they once share with you is gone in a second and your place in their life is literally substituted with someone else. But wait... "No one can take your place in someone's life", for obvious reasons that, you are YOU and cannot be replaced by anyone else or some crap like that. But you suddenly become one in many.

I always believe that one should be friends-->good friends-->close friends-->Best friends. The worst part is when it goes in a descending order.

But its kinda disturbing to witness this in front of your eyes and literally being helpless about it...because by the time you can do something...it changes from "I have a friend" to "I had a friend".
You never LOSE that particular person..that person always remains BUT he has changed and so have you. It is not necessary that you need fights and misunderstandings to create a rift in relations. Insecurity, Expectations, Influence are capable of doing it.

So....I believe make new friends...meet new people...don't cry too much and curse "change" because somewhere even you have changed. If things are not working out..." Ignorance is ALWAYS bliss."....or you can always comfort yourself by saying something like,"Har ek friend Zaroori hota hai."

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Cheers,
Gaurav

Live.Love.Laugh.

18th March 2011:
Birthday's are fun everyone says. I am never too excited about my Birthday, mostly because my birthday being in March used to coincide with the exams since 1^st Std. But this was way different, my 18th B'day...turning a Major, getting the right to VOTE in the biggest democracy in the world.

Some unexpected people wish you...some expected people don't wish you...but wait....she just wished me...OMG...she wrote happy b'day on my facebook wall....we don't need anything more now....just a single "like" or a single "poke" can make a huge difference these days. Facebook plays a huge impact in our lives, doesn’t it? Whenever you get free time…just think for one minute…what would have happened if Facebook wasn’t there….feels horrible..trust me.

Thanks Zuckerberg! :P

Giving a serious thought to what I can ask for my birthday gift....it’s my 18th Birthday....the gift should be special....still thinking....asking a friend WHAT I can ask for....still thinking....HOW can this happen? Do I have everything? No no...wait....this can't be possible....if you get everything in life...how will you understand the value of NOT having something but still I haven't thought of a B'day gift...guess I am thankful to my family that they have given my everything as and when needed...and I turn sentimental and grateful.....but life is not only about having all the objects...gifts etc....it’s also about having all the people and relations you want....which is not possible all the time.

April Onwards:

Awkwardness...jealousy...insecurity...pain…frustration all are slowing creeping in my mind...and suddenly...AYE AYE AYE AYE.....I hear children shouting....oh wait...I am on a kids camp...and the bus has entered a tunnel...I join them enthusiastically. I love kids....they have TAUGHT me so much over the past 2 months. Being elder to them doesn't stop me from enjoying and shouting in the tunnels....playing trump cards with them...taking "dhai dudh bhat"....playing "soup macoroni"….just the smile on their faces is more than thousand words said.

I am happy with my current "summer" life...suddenly...I am singing "Give me some sunshine....give me some rain...give me another chance....I WANT TO GROW UP ONCE AGAIN."

Damn it...sometimes I don't want to grow up....school was BEST....things were SO perfect then....no cell phone....limited close and trusted friends....no break-up's and patch-up's.....no confusions and complications....no rejections....everything was BEST!!

But...imagine what would happen if we remain kids forever...we need change in life...life slowly becomes monotonous and I am somewhere glad that I am growing up...making new friends...meeting new people...learning new things.

My summer season continues...having fun with new kids after every 4-5 days...new jokes...new songs...new dances...new fun. To my amusement children of about 11-12 years come and ask me..."Dada...do you have a girl-friend??" ....I still remember I was way too innocent when I was their age...the kids are amused when I tell them that even I used to collect pokemon tazzos and watch cartoons when I was their age...

The transition from that innocent small Gaurav to a young adult Gaurav now seems very smooth...when I watch myself in the mirror, it makes me wonder whether I really want to go out in that competitive world out there, with dreams of becoming an entrepreneur...am I going to survive in the big bad world out there? But then..."Survival of the fittest" is nature's rule and this is NOT going to stop me from chasing my dreams

Why does it happen that when you least expected someone to leave you or a relation to go away it goes away. Be it any relation...many times it so happens that things don't go back to normal...but this just is a probability. Should I say something or no....It happens with everyone…at one point or another we get confused in life about many things….there is always a pendulum in our mind which swings from one thing to another doubting ourselves....only reason being we fear consequences of taking decisions.

Life = Risk

and people fail to understand this.

But the problem….Like I said is fear of consequences. People are too afraid to lose what is theirs. But like I said LIFE = RISK. If you keep on saying, "I won't do a particular thing for the reason...WHAT IF something goes wrong afterwards."

This policy of Prevention is better than Cure doesn't work when it comes to taking decisions in life…specially when it is relations and stuff, and I have seen people learnt it the hard way. So I believe that we shouldn't think TOO much and do what we feel is right at a particular moment and I have been following it since the last 2 months.

Have been trying to follow a simple thing:

LIVE.LOVE.LAUGH.

The LOVE thing….I guess…I should talk less about it….people keep on believing in “Prevention is better than Cure” and I have become A burnt child that dreads fire.”

Well....finally...have written something after 4 months and it feels bloody good. It took me almost 2 days to write this…have lost the touch I guess, Just hoping that the number of followers will reach 50. This time, I am not even telling people that please use the option to your right side and share it on Facebook. I am more than happy if this whole post just brought a smile on your face.

So...LIVE your life to the fullest...LOVE and be loved...LAUGH at all the things that don't matter.

P.S - If you are reading my blog for the 1st time...please do go through all other posts as well.